On the edge of my seat.

I have no idea what I want to do with my life. Actually, that's a lie. I do know what I want to do. I just want to love on people. I want to have craft days with people,start book clubs, and have tons and tons of tea parties.I sound like an old women, geez. And while I am doing these things, I want laughter to fill the rooms, I want smiles on our faces, and I want the love of Christ to be undeniably present. That's what I want.

Most days I wish I could get a degree for loving on people. For this degree, you would take classes and learn how to be selfless, how to speak to people using their love languages, and how to get to know the hearts of people. If only.

Currently, my major is Social Work. I recently switched from Education. I am not sure I am done adding to my major, there may be one final thing to do until I am at peace. Please don't ask me what I want to do with my major, because like I said before, I have no idea what I am doing with my life.i have no five year plan. And to be honest, I am more comfortable with that thought everyday. It's beautiful to be in the place of the unknown. It leaves me looking to God for guidance and leading. It fosters reliance of God, a life in the Spirit, and a season of growth. At first, the thought is terrifying. But when I really think about, I am overwhelmed by peace. If I knew where I was going, I'd surely mess it up, I would probably try to tweak it and change it, and in the end, it would be disastrous. God leads as he sees fit, and most days I am thankful that I do not know. Let's be honest, if I did know it wouldn't be any fun. I'd feel like I do when I know the ending to a movie I've been dying to see, or the feeling I get when I ruin a book for myself and read the last chapter first. The stories are never interesting when you know what is to come. The interesting ones are those that leave you on the edge of your seat, waiting in anticipation for the unknown to become the reality. That's how I want my life to be. I want to always be on the edge of my seat, waiting with joy to see where God leads me next.

For the rare occasion that I do desire to know what's coming next, that I wish I could fast forward a few scenes ahead, or to skip a few chapters, I remind myself of Abram. We read about this in the first few verses of Genesis 12. you should go ahead and read all of Abram's (who later becomes Abraham) story. I just want to point out the beginning.

1 The LORD had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.

2 “I will make you into a great nation,
and I will bless you;
I will make your name great,
and you will be a blessing.[a]
3 I will bless those who bless you,
and whoever curses you I will curse;
and all peoples on earth
will be blessed through you.”[b]

4 So Abram went, as the LORD had told him; and Lot went with him. Abram was seventy-five years old when he set out from Harran. 5 He took his wife Sarai, his nephew Lot, all the possessions they had accumulated and the people they had acquired in Harran, and they set out for the land of Canaan, and they arrived there.

Catch that? In verse 1 God calls Abram to leave his country and his people to the land God will show him. Say what? God makes a promise next, but no where in this promise does it say where He is leading Abram and his family. He simply tells him to pack and go with just a promise to hold onto. No five year plan and no direction of where to go. God simply says go. Abram, being the man he is, does just that. He packs up all he has, his family and possessions, and starts to go with no sense of where it is that he is going. Verse 4 says "he went as the Lord had told him". That's all. He went as the Lord had told him. It's as simple as that.

I want it to be that simple in my life. Thankfully, it can be. It is that easy when I focus on God and where he has me. So I will lead as shows me, with the promise that He never leaves nor forsakes me. I'm on the edge of my seat, waiting with great anticipation to see what my Lord will lay before me next.